O' Christmas Tree, O' Christmas Tree

I love Christmas... It is was of my most favorite times of the year. Today, I went my friend Allen's house and helped him decorate his tree after we had ventured to Hobby Lobby to buy new decorations. He passed his old tree down to me and we brought it back here and he helped me decorate mine and it is beautiful. All reds and greens. The cats like the tree... LOL i can't keep them out of the darn thing. Tomorrow, I am going to tackle the outside and try to do my christmas cards. We had a wonderful thanksgiving, and the weekend has been fabulous. The kids mom and I even hit the "Black Friday" sales early and bought a few gifts for the kids. I really enjoyed the shopping trip with her. Well, this is all that is going on for now and life is blessed.

Goodnight,
Re'

Google killed the Internet Geek

Google search engine has destroyed the joy we simple geeks used to enjoy in finding obscure sights about things we enjoyed or wanted to learn about.

Google has become what MTV was to Radio and I despise it for its attempt at censorship.
Yes, censorship. It picks out the top visited sites and gives me a list to choose from and upon arriving I have yet another link to click to if only i will buy something for so many number of days free.

I could rant for ever but you get my drift.

Peace
Re'

The Ghost of Autumns Passed...

Autumn is not a delightful season for me and I have become very tainted at the thought of it approaching. Winter is not my discontent, only autumn. Everything haunting my life has happened in Autumn. Death, destruction, failure, divorce, dying of relationships, and myself slipping into a loneliness I cannot even begin to describe. It tears at my heart as though my heart breaking. Even amoung family and friends I feel a strange alienation from them that I cannot break. I feel no bound, no connection.

Is this what having Bipolar means? It has alienated me from my husband. My seventeen year old step-son has driven a wedge between me and Bill and Bill chooses not to see it. Everyone keeps punishing me for overly lossing my temper before I got help and found out I had Bipolar. I never hurt any of the kids, all i did was yell loudly for them to go their chores. I have been the one working for the last 5 years supporting this family. Hell, Bill has even had me move out, but I do not give up. I am tired and these are ramblings of a tired soul.

Night
Re'

A Poem

Just a little tainted darkness
On the edge of sanity, An
Ironic reality tinged with
Distorted light that ends tonight...

She's made up her" minds, " No
More crying will there be for
He is dead to she...Forever
To be tinged ironically
on her reality.

11/02/06
Renee Herod